ok, so its a new year, graduated from college, single after sookie and now ... lost.
i just feel that your first love will never escape that little hole in your heart as it keeps digging and digging more holes into it. i dont know. somehow depression follows after this hard digging into the heart. some may say it has been way way too long to dread over the past but hey, we are only human and i guess i am one fucked up little kid.
the window of opportunity strikes at the weirdest time and the window of bad luck just comes at the right time. is it coincidence that this happens? who knows. all we know is that life keeps on playing games with our little heads as we hop like little kids through our paths.
nothing seems to bring more fear to me than being faced with dissappointment. sometimes you just expect so much from this person after a long hard wait but somehow, it is all the same. the past is still repeating itself. the curves and bends are still the same. even the WORDS are the same. should i finally give up this LONG and HUGE conquest? i would say no as its been way too long to give up now.
what would i do? wait, patiently as i always have.
depression isnt something i can control. i feel so insignificant at the moment.
rick.
i just feel that your first love will never escape that little hole in your heart as it keeps digging and digging more holes into it. i dont know. somehow depression follows after this hard digging into the heart. some may say it has been way way too long to dread over the past but hey, we are only human and i guess i am one fucked up little kid.
the window of opportunity strikes at the weirdest time and the window of bad luck just comes at the right time. is it coincidence that this happens? who knows. all we know is that life keeps on playing games with our little heads as we hop like little kids through our paths.
nothing seems to bring more fear to me than being faced with dissappointment. sometimes you just expect so much from this person after a long hard wait but somehow, it is all the same. the past is still repeating itself. the curves and bends are still the same. even the WORDS are the same. should i finally give up this LONG and HUGE conquest? i would say no as its been way too long to give up now.
what would i do? wait, patiently as i always have.
depression isnt something i can control. i feel so insignificant at the moment.
rick.
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